Story

I am ALONE

While I was walking down the ro       But where is my home was the only unanswered question till date …

ad in solitude I realize I have walked too far… its time to go back home…        

I have been quite a traveller, left home early because I was never wanted their,was earning since 14 and earning really good , I understood the world well and can well interpret its working.   So now I am on my voyage to find a better world  and a home.

What was the last time I ate? oh  it has been 3 days  … Okay and what was I doing for 3 days I guess was trying to write a solution to the quintic equation, okay  that’s enough for me lets get something to eat before my solutions end up in this corner . I get up  dust my self off and like a gentlemen I walk down the corridor towards the mess to grab some food. While I walked I saw a bunch of kids running around I guess they were playing  yes when I was young I played a lot with my brother we used to run around  carefree until dusk, I remember our mother calling us come inside and clean yourself up.. dinner is ready.. coming back to reality I started moving towards the mess , I felt sad very sad because I loved them all and I never wanted to leave them… then I looked up and said they don’t need me any more , and I walked I reached the mess and took a plate while taking the plate I looked at my hands they became as black as coal because of the ink , I remember how my mother made me wash my hands once I was back in the house , I told myself what was wrong with me today it had been 15 long years to have heard from my family and why today I was reminded of everything ? If this goes on it will be tough for me to live ! I have to stop it, I took the plate and took some bread and butter  and a muffin and some black coffee.. I went and sat near the window from where I got a good  view and watched outside as I had my breakfast . I was completely mesmerized at the creation of God …  okay I am full lets get back to work I am quite refreshed now , walking back to the room I thought how I was insulted and thought to be a useless person  … how I was laughed upon when I fumbled I was a disgrace to my family its good that I walked away, Now I am teaching mathematics because I have always been good with numbers , who thought I can do so many things , i don’t even know that my parents know about it or not , but it hardly makes a difference … I reached back in the room and layed down on the bed and started thinking of all that happened with me in these 15 years .

 I remember when my father slapped me in front of a huge gathering when I was accused of stealing . My father is a Political man, has a big name in the city, people respect him a lot, and my mother is a housewife  who loves to cook and is a perfect hostess. Why was i accused of stealing when I did nothing?                                                                                  I was a very shy boy was always into my books and theories , studied in one of the finest schools I never spoke much but heard a lot , my Father wanted me to be like him but I was never interested in all that stuff , I always wanted to be a mathematician by the age of 12 I published my first paper in group theory  and I was sure about my bright future but things started being a bit different once I started growing and then I left home.

I started my work on my own in the starting many days I slept on the platform and cried remembering the cosy bed but I became strong thinking of what I did was good … the last paper which I wrote made me famous and I got a lot of offers of teaching and I went for Cambridge worked there for  10 good years and now I take a break to find a better life…

In this span of time I met a women. A face that  I cannot forget, She was perfect  …  had the most beautiful eyes I had every seen and when she laughed oh I’ll  laugh along with her , she was so beautiful . I met her for the first time when I was having coffee and she entered in the coffee shop and I looked at her and I fell for her she was magnificent.  the Café was all packed she looked around for a place  then she saw me and asked me if she could join , oh I was totally speechless my heart trembled some how I said yes of course please sit.She sat with me …oh I just couldn’t take my eyes of her face I tried to stop but my senses lost their control  I was hesitant but somehow I managed to ask her “what’s your name?” she said,” Arabella” ,oh that a beautiful name I  said ,”and yours?” she asked ” Colton” i replied and she smiled . All I was thinking was Arabella weds Colton sounds so good. The perfume she wore I could smell it  and it was making me mad for her. I was so lost that she asked me something and I was thinking about our future , she again asked sir so what do you do for your living ,getting back to my senses I replied I am a professor , I teach mathematics she was well impressed , we started having a good chat and then she said she needs to go and so did I , I accompanied her to her place and bid her farewell it was one of the most beautiful day of my life, After that we met almost everyday in the evening after my classes were over . We both fell in love , And  one day I proposed her an I knew she would say a yes and so she did we decided to get married , I talked to her father and everything was set and we got married , I so loved her  . everything was beyond perfect but I had no problem because I loved it that way. One evening when I came back home I found she was not there but just a Note saying:“I cannot do this any more ,I am leaving.”

For a moment I did not understand what just happened what did I do? Rushing back to her house I asked for her she wasn’t there I searched for her everywhere but I couldn’t find her. My life went back to the same place where it started . I was all depressed I just wanted to know why she left me ? what was my fault? did I love her too much? I wanted to know. One year went by I did not hear from here, I tried to stop thinking about here but I couldn’t she was always on my mind. one evening I thought of going to the Café I sat lone and had my coffee while I had it I saw her outside with a man who was known to me he was taught philosophy , I got up from my seat and went out and stood right next to her and asked “Where had been?” she was terrified and she fumbled she hardly could say anything . The man said  “some issues sir ? The women you talk to is my wife”, I was surprised as I looked at her I dint know what to say I walked away and now I lie on this bed don’t know what fate will brings  me next….

To be continued…

You might have heard this quote :

"On the journey of life's highay, keep your eyes upon the goal. Focus on the nut but not upon the Hole". 

So what is a Goal?
An Objective purpose.

Description of a Goal: Its a dream which is acted upon.

So therefore  Until and Unless you have a Goal you don't know the purpose of your Life.Goals are very important in one's life. One requires some set of objectives to become someone. Is like without goals you are aimless you have no idea where to go you will have a lot of options but you dont know what is suitable for you and what will make you achieve what you desire off.

Life acts like a four way or even more ways .You will have no idea where to go and which road to take till the time you either have a map to reffer and you yourself take the initiative of doing something. Because once you stand on a  four way you will have to take a road and it should be the right way so thst in future you might not regret for all that you did, you must not be lead to the resul that what you did was wrong. Because It's your decision, its your life. No one can rule over you because it's your life and you cannot let others run your life.
I'll include a story here, once there was a Man , a very goal oriented man , who wanted to do something great , who wanted to become known to the world, in the process of growing up he got deviated from his path because of certain reasons like lack of determination, statements like:"You cannot do this!!!" , various other pressures. That man could end up being the President of united states but he ended up working in a small firm and living in a  studio appartment. He had dreams, he had goals but the only mistake he did was he let others to take charge of him , he let others to drive his future for him and see the way he ended , it's rightly said that IF YOU HAVE A GOAL THEN YOU WILL GOVERN LIFE , AND IF YOU DON'T  THEN LIFE WILL GOVERN YOU. And so did happen in this mans case.
I can tell you how can you something usually people dont have goals , they are like ok I have done B.A not what next..?? Okay i'll go for M.A or... should i teach ... God I am so confused.
Why Is it so? Why in the first place you took B.A? Ah! because my bestfriend was taking the same thing or I was'nt eligible for anything else. Did any one ever say I have passion for studying those subjects and I want to do something extraodinary which no one might have seen yet.

So dear Reader it is very essential for a person to keep on thinking what he wants to become, Its just one life we have why not do something that would be a part of History.

There are somethings I want to tell you...
#1.Althought   we all dont have an IQ level of 160-190 and neither it is required because we need not walk as fast as others all that we have to do is walk but with the same pace that you may not be tired and walk  .
#2.Be Determined , Once you have decided something follow up and achieve it.
#3.You are the master of your own fate , dont let others derive you.
#4. Belive you are the best, because you definately are .
#5.Sit and Decide what you want , what will be right for you and your future.

And Just don't Forget what you want and believe in yourself , You will do it.

My Existence

We have all heard that no two snowflakes are alike. Each snowflake takes the perfect form for the maximum efficiency and effectiveness for its journey. And while the universal force of gravity gives them a shared destination, the expansive space in the air gives each snowflake the opportunity to take their own path. They are on the same journey, but each takes a different path.
Along this gravity-driven journey, some snowflakes collide and damage each other, some collide and join together, some are influenced by wind... there are so many transitions and changes that take place along the journey of the snowflake. But, no matter what the transition, the snowflake always finds itself perfectly shaped for its journey. 
I find parallels in nature to be a beautiful reflection of grand orchestration. One of these parallels is of snowflakes and us. We, too, are all headed in the same direction. We are being driven by a universal force to the same destination. We are all individuals taking different journeys and along our journey, we sometimes bump into each other, we cross paths, we become altered... we take different physical forms. But at all times we too are 100% perfectly imperfect. At every given moment we are absolutely perfect for what is required for our journey. I collided, i got damaged, i got influenced, but yes i learned , i practiced to collide a little less to damage a little less.I've apparently been the victim of growing up, which apparently happens to all of us at one point or another. It's been going on for quite some time now, without me knowing it. I've found that growing up can mean a lot of things. For me, it doesn't mean I should become somebody completely new and stop loving the things I used to love. It means I've just added more things to my list.  But some new things I've fallen in love with are -- mismatched everything. Mismatched chairs, mismatched colors, mismatched personalities. but then all this mismatch  made a perfect match. And i came into existence.
I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life. I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as making a "life." I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one. I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I've learned that I still have a lot to learn. I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.
and finally Nothing is ever really lost to us as long as we remember it.The beautiful journey of today can only begin when we learn to let go of yesterday, and so did i , i let go of everything to be someone.